THE NERVE

came here with my body 

now i lie in ruins

whats a girl to do when it's all been said & done

the darkness that's a-comin

might just be here to stay

there ain't no chance for romance since you 

chipped it all away

your sticks and stones don't break me

but i can't deny

they have sent me back to darkness 

and that's where i'll likely die

you said i wasn't worthy of the life that i'd been living

despite the truth in front of you that i'd been doing fine

i put aside my brushes

i put aside my pen

you stole all my ideas

and you fucked with me again

i could never get it back

like pushing empty pin

so let's get it all behind us 

'fore we start it once again

i may be in ruins

as empty as the sky

but i still have a need in me that will not be denied

i'd walk across a sea of nails

for love that might be true

if the blood that flowed from me 

was poisenous to you

yeah you took me by surprize 

you really did me in

i'll forever sing your curses 

if it punishes your sin

music and lyrics: astrid young © SOCAN

vocals: astrid

guitars: eric mcfadden

bass: eric mcfadden

drums: ray farrugia

studios:

sly fi chapel, trenton ontario

robot recording, san francisco

napier park recording, dundas ontario

engineers: 

brent bodrug, travis kasperbauer, steve foster

mixed by travis kasperbauer

produced by astrid young

mastered by joao Carvalho

i was angry when i wrote this. just got out of a long-term relationship with an NPD. i lost myself. to this day, i lament the parts of myself that were casualties of that relationship. there are some things that you just never get back. but life goes on. 

 

other than that, i think it's pretty self-explanatory. part of the journey, which isn't always a joy. i guess if life was always good, we wouldn't know the difference. reminder that you're alive. 

eric was so great playing on this, it's really up his alley, so i'd envisioned him playing on it the whole time. kick ass! SAME WITH Ray, not that he would admit it, but he's got a lot of rockabilly haunting his early years, so it suits him well. there were a few other tracks ray had worked on but this is the only one we finished for this version of the record.

in a way, i kind of envision this song with a bunch of crusty old cattle-riders out on the plain at night, sitting round the fire and chanting in the background - we actually tried to lay this idea down in the studio, but of course we'd had a few libations and we couldn't stop laughing. heck, i'm laughing now ... sorry Jimmy, i'll get you next time ...